Tuesday, September 22, 2009

Promise me

My heart is heavy and I am feeling sorry for myself. I'm thinking of how much I will miss having a little baby in our house, and in my arms. I tell myself again and again that I am grateful for what I have and that we dont need more than two but it still hurts to know I will never experience it again. All of it. The excitement of finding out, the movement of the little spirit you have been blessed to carry, seeing that sweet unique face for the very first time, and crazy happiness of figuring it out all over again. Dear friends, please promise me you will let me come over and hold your little angels. Please promise. I'll get my fix and then leave. Promise.

8 comments:

American Mom said...

I have those same feelings - can't wait to snuggle on some babies!!

Tenille Gates said...

Our baby will be ALL YOURS to come snuggle with whenever you want!...Promise ♥

Carla said...

Hmm, maybe Devonn and I can work something out for you guys... give us like 9.5 or 10 months though. Hopefully not any longer ;)

Tam said...

I promise when our next one comes you will be first in line.

I have had those feelings. Before Sadie we didn't think I was going to be able to have any kids. They weight is heavy I know but I promise it will get better.

Just remember HE has a plan and HE knows how strong and wonderful you are and HE knows you can make it through this.

cj said...

I am in a similar boat as you. I cannot have any more children. There are times when it really bothers me, and times I am at peace with it. Our babies are a bit older than yours, and we've decided that for right now two is good, and it is right for us. Its never fun having that decision made for you. My husband always has brought up the alternative, which was not being around for Grace to grow up. I was pregnant with Grace when I looked at a very old family tree - many women in my family died during childbirth. Thats when I feel "lucky". I'll be thinking of you - and I know that you will make peace with it.
Thinking of you - Connie

The Olson Family said...

My sweet baby will be here in 4 weeks!!! You are more than welcome to come love her whenever you want!

KillmerFam said...

It's perfectly natural for you to have those feelings, as long as you are continuing to feel grateful for what you do have, and I know that you do! You are such a good mom and those babies love you so much! :o) IF I can convince Ron to have another, you are DEFINATELY in line to hold him/her, but it's not looking good, so I guess we'll just be baby stealers together! :o) (not literally, of course!)

The Potter Pack said...

Hey you ... you know you are always welcome to love on my babes ... in fact - I have one showing up here straight from heaven in just a couple wks !!