Friday, August 29, 2008
by Mrs. Schmalison at 9:40 PM
Thursday, August 28, 2008
I have been thinking the past few days that I will no longer be the mother of one but the mother of two and even though that makes me very happy, it also makes me very sad. I have spent the past two years spending my days with Patrick. I was telling some of my friends at a baby shower the other weekend that I have not spent a night away from Patrick. We have had the opportunity to leave him at my Mom and Dads house when they were babysitting and he had fallen asleep there, but when it comes to the time to decide to take him home or leave him there I always chicken out. What if he needs me in the middle of the night? I still check on him sometimes in the night because I have a bad dream or think I hear something, and I check on him before I go to bed to make sure he isnt cold or has his legs stuck in the crib or just to even look at him. I have tried to stop doing this because I think it is making it harder for me to think of our time divided by another child. Our alone time has been very precious to me and even now I am tearing up thinking about how his feelings will be hurt because I cant spend all of my attention on him. I am very excited for our new addition to be coming but am very nervous to learn how to still show him all the love I feel for him. I started a journal for him when I was eight months pregnant which I try to keep up with all of his cute new sayings and stories of what he does and making sure how much he means to us. I plan on giving it to him on his baptism day which I hope will someday mean as much to him as it has meant to me to share his early life with him. I am so thankful that he was our first child and he has taught me how to be more loving and patient. I remember my sister telling me a little while after he was born, how surprised she was at how patient I was with him. I was not patient even after we were married, it has been something that I have had to learn as a mother even more because babies are so fragile and the last thing I would want to do is hurt him or yell at him. I want everyone to know how much I love him and I dont look forward to those days when he will go to school and leave me for so long and then grow up and marry some wonderful woman and move away. He is and always will be my baby.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 3:50 PM
Monday, August 25, 2008
In honor of tomorrow being a week away from my due date, I have changed my blog look to go with a baby girl. I am going to have to get used to a little girl and the cute things that go along with them, so this is my new beginning.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 10:29 AM
Thursday, August 21, 2008
Well, we went to the doctor again today, and since my mom is in Utah Jesús came with me to help me with Patrick. My appointment was for 3:30 but when we got there I was told that the doctor was running an hour and a half late, so we could either wait or reschedule. Well since we had dragged Patrick all the way across town for a 30 minute drive I thought why do this again on Monday? So we waited, for 2 hours!!!! By the time we actually saw the doctor I was hoping that I was at least a little more dilated but no, still at a two and 70% effaced. I guess its better than nothing. I have been feeling a little off since she checked me, maybe that did something. Well I have to wait till Mom gets back anyway and the carseat got here today so besides Mom being gone, we are ready to get his thing rolling. Ann Anderson, my birthing coach, should be here on the 26th so maybe the baby is waiting for her.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 8:08 PM
Sunday, August 17, 2008
Ok, my ultimate goal is to potty train Patrick because I am terrified of having to change two kids diapers, mostly because I hate it. It didnt really bother me but I guess after having to do it for two years it kind of gets to you. So I have sort of been putting off the potty training thing because Patrick seems to be terrified of the toilet, but recently I have been asking him more and more about going on the potty to which he always answers no. I even tried a candy bribe and he still said no! What kid turns down candy?? Well, the other night I figured I would put him on the toilet before he got in the tub since he always pees right as I put him in. Well, he went on the potty!!! Yea!! So tonight I tried it again and he went again, but after being in the tub for about 10 or fifteen minutes, he told me that he needed to go on the potty. So I pulled him out and set him down and he went again!!!! I am so excited. I dont know if this will lead to anything but we are on the right track.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 9:27 PM
Friday, August 15, 2008
I went to the doctor today, not much change she said and she wasnt really happy about my trip to Mammoth. She asked that I stay in town. I of course said yes. I'm going to start walking this week so hopefully more progress will be made.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 6:49 PM
Thursday, August 14, 2008
I got this picture of the amazing view from our small picnic spot. You can see a water fall to the right of the picture. The weather was amazing, warm in the sun and cool in the shade.
Ben rented a boat for a few hours and paddled Sara, Jesus and Janae around the lake while we ate lunch with the boys. When he got back we decided it was probably smarter to separate the boys in two trips so we didnt have to worry about both of them falling in the water. Patrick didnt like that idea but it made me feel better. He was clumsy all day any way and was falling and tripping every chance he got. Once his feet flew completely out from under him backwards and he fell on his forehead.
While we were waiting for them to get back Jesus ate lunch and showed Patrick how to fish. Then when they came back Mom, Jesus, Patrick and I got into the boat for a little ride. I wasnt too excited about the boat ride because I am a big fan of solid ground (see told you, paranoid) but I went anyway and Jesus paddled us around. It was a quick trip but Patrick seemed to enjoy it.
On our way home we hit a bird with the windshield which was really gross because all that was left on the window was blood and feathers. We also saw tons of elk in the sprinklers on the farming land. We thought they would be on the other side of the road and were looking for them when we turned our heads and saw them all in the sprinklers. They must have needed showers. Then after a few hours of driving we saw some flashing lights coming towards us so we pulled over and a cop car pulled in front of us and said on the speaker that a wide load was coming through that was 26 ft wide and we needed to stay on the shoulder until it passed us. We saw more flashing lights ahead of us and something really big coming really slowly so as it got closer we realized that we needed to get off the shoulder and into the dirt so we didnt get hit. I couldnt resist and had to get a picture. It took up both lanes. The poor people behind it were moving at a snails pace.It was a great vacation and I hope we can go back again. I would like to hike to the falls and see a lot of other things we missed. I really loved being with family and always look forward to our little vacations. I think we are good for now and we are going to have some new adventures when the baby comes so we will be holding off on trips for a few weeks.
by Mrs. Schmalison at 10:32 AM