Monday, June 2, 2008

Alright, I made my decision

Well amazingly enough my decision came to me while we were sitting in church. I wasnt even really thinking about it but all of a sudden it just came into my head that I should have a V-bac. I thought about it and this way I will know which way I would rather have a baby and if I have a cesarean then I will ruin my chance to ever have a regular birth and I would really like to experience it. I am of course nervous about dealing with the pain but I know I can do it. I am going to start preparing myself now for the pain I will have to endure and know that somehow I will get through it. My mom once told me she would have rather had contractions than gal stone pain. I have had gal stones and I had to deal with it a little over a year but with contractions, they will eventually end and I will have a beautiful baby girl to enjoy and I will be able to enjoy her faster than if I were to have a c-section. I couldnt even get Patrick out of his bed at night while I was in the hospital because I couldnt get out of bed myself. Now I will be able to take care of her when I need to instead of asking Jesus to get her and bring her to me. Jesus says that it is my decision and that he will support me in whichever decision I make. I think it will be wonderful for us to experience it together and for him to be able to watch her be born. I know that I will love having her with me from the minute she is born and even though Jesus thinks he might pass out I am sure he will be fine and I would love to see him hold her for the first time. I didnt get to be there for him holding Patrick for the first time and I kind of regret it, I had to ask him what his reaction was and if he cried. I am happy with the decision and I want to thank you all for your advice and support.

4 comments:

Kathryn said...

Yay! Good for you! Your body is amazing and you can do it! I hope it is as rewarding for you as it was for me.

Best of luck!

Jocelyn said...

I'm so exctied for you!!! :) If ya wanna hear more stories I'll share all 4 of mine with ya (just not in the blog world). They were all so different.

Carla said...

Awesome! Pain wise, I know you can do it. We'll be rooting for you! A bad thing about c-sections is the around 4 max. But if you opt for the v-bac route you guys can have like 10 LOL (jk...unless you want 10. Then I'm not jk)

The Potter Pack said...

I knew after watching me birth Zoie into this world - you would get a vbac a try !! That is exciting ... congrats - big decision !! and I recovered quickly from both of my natural (but with drugs!) births ... so, hopefully you will too !!